I haven't forgotten about you!

I will write down my thoughts tomrw. I am very tried right now but the title of my piece will be "Allow me to speak freely"

Bottled Up

My emotions are bottled!

I never feel like I get a chance to cry.

Pain in my heart is weighing me down and I'm screaming for help.

My heart is heavy although completely empty

Confused with emotions of a sane mind.

This is the worst...

When you can logical justify all your emotions...

Knowing why you feel the way you do...

Knowing that it will past..

Not being able to dwell in the moment of sorrow..

This is a gift and curse..

See everyone should be able to just get lost in there emotion even if it is only for a second.

But not me!

Not even with life and death...

I justify every situation logical...

radically..

Can I just lay on my floor and cry sometimes??

Please?

See I'm emotionally bottled up with emotion!

And not one human being can help me!

Some times when life seems to hard, I just want to be held..

Then I quote myself by saying, "Life is easy, we just have to live"

(Incomplete thoughts)

Another Again

JOHN LEGEND LYRICS - Another Again: "So we did it again
Knowing we should quit it, but we simply won't admit it again
Oh it feels good, it's so good, but I won't do it again"

Inner Thoughts

Facebook Artless Thompson: "I don't get caught up in my emotion because I radicalize my thoughts. I understand the consequences of every action that I take. So the word Sorry is there only to help you. I am human and reality is that every one of us has or will make a mistake. While judging me you are not my judge. I have no fear. Only Remorse. I shall still live because I have been given a second chance to alter my future. So when you see me smile. Yes I'm happy! Because things for me could have been a lot worst! God has shined on me and how dare you in the darkest of MY situations take his GLORY!!"

WRONG WAY

ARTLESS

Twitter / Home: "Lost in a world with GPS navigation. Make a sharp left only to turn right, keeping straight only to make a U-turn. Winding roads lead to a dead end!!"

The Light

"I'll never call you my bitch or even my boo, there's so much to your name there's so much more to you. — Common"

Life is nothing but a big party!!

It is not far from the truth if you catch me singing, "Every where I go I feel like VIP." ->

I have the best friends...God made us perfect for one another. Its funny because just recently I realized I have a lot of female friends..that usually never works out but we are doing just fine!! We are all differently equal. We feed off of one anothers energy!! Its great! If you ever meet us you will feel what I'm talking about...So if and when you see us, say hi! Because you will see us one day we are everywhere...and if your never there..I promise you will still see us somewhere..haha..dont worry!!

Party! Party! Party! Lets all get Wasted!!

(Rock Star Life Style...."I really might not make it")

I tried that...I lived it...I found out that I wasn't BUILT for it...So Im over it!! Like really...I cant mess with it!!

Facebook | Artless Thompson

"Mind open to the possiblity...Heart closed to the sense of urgentency. But the Eyes see clearly what the hands wish they could touch freely. Alert are all five senses. Amora brings pure pleasure to the taste buds. You must remember to never awake love. -Keyara"

J.COLE is going to be a big deal to the world in a couple more months!

He is a great lyricist!! Watch out for him!! Look him up, listen & absorb.

Fatal Attraction

Visual.
Tall, Slim, Cute, Cocky, & Self confident
Intrigued by his aura not so much his swag.
Didn't know a thing about his life but felt as if I've meet him before.
His name went in my search of facebook.
Conscience made me pause before I pressed REQUEST.
KEYARA?....Are you crazy?
No, I'm curious...and hey "I have to live my life!"
OK...Send friend request.
Unlike Twitter you cant cancel your request...DAMN!!
So now I'm all F'd up in the game.
In between thoughts I'm nerves as hell....ugh
"I need to get my life together"
Relief...maybe...not so much though
1 Notification...Friend request Approved.
Question? Why?
OK now bigger dilemma...
WHAT THE HELL WILL I SAY?
FUCK!
Hey, wont work...that would be a waste of time & plus I HATE small talk.
But I cant be too blunt...he is not a regular dude.
Its not the regular situation...I didn't catch his eye he cough mine!
(I feel like that was a problem)
Lupe- Sunshine "Out of all the numbers in the world lean me a few that will lead me to you"
DENIED!! lol My smooth pick up line didn't work..haha
So I gave UP!
Mind over his aura but body still in some type of lust to know him.
Every time I thought I forgot about wanting to know him...New video post!
Ugh...PLAY...."he is cute...in an innocent way...and silly...caught myself showing friends his videos..." CRAZZY!!!
So we would laugh together...hahaha
Party with the girls....
Chilling....felt someone looking at me...OMG
It was HIM!!!
But I always act nonchalant...(what the hell is wrong with ME!?)
So we lock eyes...exchange head nods...and that is it!
PISSED because I was being a bitch in every sense of the word!
FML...I thought...but I could not make a move.
REJECTION was not an option for that night.
So I continued to chill.
Back to facebook..."You saw me the other day"
He replied.
My presence is known.
PERFECT.
Now....I'm chill.
Hey's, How you doing's, Whats up"s...that small talk shit that I hate!!
Me playing too much one night....
Asked a question, that at the time was innocent but now is a regret.
The quote "I gotta live my life" changed my life..in a sense.
In your presence I was content..like I've known you for a while.
So I was comfortable...it was an allusion.
I didn't know anything about you.
But because "I have to live my life"
That night I lost myself.
Actions made me act out of my character.
Knowing me you know I'm big on perception
NOT TONIGHT....LOST
DAMN.
Woke up...in Bliss...work day went great.
Home...FUCK...REALITY HIT MY ASS IN THE FACE!
BITCH! WTF?
ugh....
In my mind I processed my actions...came up with the out come of SLUT!
(only in perception tho...knowing me you would know that I had reasoning behind my actions)
Reasoning:
Single (for about a year)
Young woman
I felt comfortable
I liked you
Most important part HORNY..lol
& quote...."I have to live my life"
I came to the conclusion that I have to stop living my life...
Its crazy because it is a regret of mine
but I would still act in the same manner.
CRAZY huh?
No, before this I was bland...boring...predictable
Now I have a little more character and knowledge of my limits.
(I probably wont let another get as closer BUT hey...I know that I can be spontaneous lol)
I'm juss living my life DON'T JUDGE ME!! :)

AND THEN I WOKE UP
WHHHYYYYYYYY?
REALIZED I WAS DREAMING. WHY ARE MY DREAMS SO VISUAL...I WISH I HADN'T BEEN AWAKEN BUT MY Alarm CLOCK!