Fatal Attraction

Visual.
Tall, Slim, Cute, Cocky, & Self confident
Intrigued by his aura not so much his swag.
Didn't know a thing about his life but felt as if I've meet him before.
His name went in my search of facebook.
Conscience made me pause before I pressed REQUEST.
KEYARA?....Are you crazy?
No, I'm curious...and hey "I have to live my life!"
OK...Send friend request.
Unlike Twitter you cant cancel your request...DAMN!!
So now I'm all F'd up in the game.
In between thoughts I'm nerves as hell....ugh
"I need to get my life together"
Relief...maybe...not so much though
1 Notification...Friend request Approved.
Question? Why?
OK now bigger dilemma...
WHAT THE HELL WILL I SAY?
FUCK!
Hey, wont work...that would be a waste of time & plus I HATE small talk.
But I cant be too blunt...he is not a regular dude.
Its not the regular situation...I didn't catch his eye he cough mine!
(I feel like that was a problem)
Lupe- Sunshine "Out of all the numbers in the world lean me a few that will lead me to you"
DENIED!! lol My smooth pick up line didn't work..haha
So I gave UP!
Mind over his aura but body still in some type of lust to know him.
Every time I thought I forgot about wanting to know him...New video post!
Ugh...PLAY...."he is cute...in an innocent way...and silly...caught myself showing friends his videos..." CRAZZY!!!
So we would laugh together...hahaha
Party with the girls....
Chilling....felt someone looking at me...OMG
It was HIM!!!
But I always act nonchalant...(what the hell is wrong with ME!?)
So we lock eyes...exchange head nods...and that is it!
PISSED because I was being a bitch in every sense of the word!
FML...I thought...but I could not make a move.
REJECTION was not an option for that night.
So I continued to chill.
Back to facebook..."You saw me the other day"
He replied.
My presence is known.
PERFECT.
Now....I'm chill.
Hey's, How you doing's, Whats up"s...that small talk shit that I hate!!
Me playing too much one night....
Asked a question, that at the time was innocent but now is a regret.
The quote "I gotta live my life" changed my life..in a sense.
In your presence I was content..like I've known you for a while.
So I was comfortable...it was an allusion.
I didn't know anything about you.
But because "I have to live my life"
That night I lost myself.
Actions made me act out of my character.
Knowing me you know I'm big on perception
NOT TONIGHT....LOST
DAMN.
Woke up...in Bliss...work day went great.
Home...FUCK...REALITY HIT MY ASS IN THE FACE!
BITCH! WTF?
ugh....
In my mind I processed my actions...came up with the out come of SLUT!
(only in perception tho...knowing me you would know that I had reasoning behind my actions)
Reasoning:
Single (for about a year)
Young woman
I felt comfortable
I liked you
Most important part HORNY..lol
& quote...."I have to live my life"
I came to the conclusion that I have to stop living my life...
Its crazy because it is a regret of mine
but I would still act in the same manner.
CRAZY huh?
No, before this I was bland...boring...predictable
Now I have a little more character and knowledge of my limits.
(I probably wont let another get as closer BUT hey...I know that I can be spontaneous lol)
I'm juss living my life DON'T JUDGE ME!! :)

AND THEN I WOKE UP
WHHHYYYYYYYY?
REALIZED I WAS DREAMING. WHY ARE MY DREAMS SO VISUAL...I WISH I HADN'T BEEN AWAKEN BUT MY Alarm CLOCK!